I missed my first daily post yesterday for a couple of reasons: 1) didn't feel like I had much new news 2) was pretty busy 3) had company for dinner/evening and was too tired.
I bet you're wondering what the heck I could be so busy with sitting around in my moon boots?! Well, yesterday morning my husband and I had a bright and early appointment to meet a realtor to look at a townhome for our son/family who will be returning to the states in early January after being gone for about six years now. He is a Marine and has been serving with his familiy in Okinawa for the past three years or so, and previously served in Hawaii, with two tours in Iraq. He started recruiter school about 4 weeks ago in San Diego with the hope of getting stationed in/near Iowa. He got his orders for Des Moines last Thursday and now we are assisting with the house hunting. ANYWAY, we spent about 30 minutes walking through the house and taking photos. Afterwards I can home, put the feet up and iced as I was still a little tired and swollen from overdoing on Friday evening and this didn't help.
I tried to spend the most of yesterday with my feet up, searching for housing on the computer from my chair and ottoman. We had much needed company that brought us dinner Saturday evening (love company bearing food!) and was able to keep feet up pretty good all evening.
Couple of things I've noticed. My feet a more swollen than I thought, I just hadn't looked at them from the right angle. They are really swollen on the bottom at the pads of my feet. I am at the point where I can feel pretty good than overdo, which doesn't really take much and is very difficult to judge. Interestingly my toes are STILL black and blue, which I still can't believe how long that is hanging on.
Another thing that I noticed is that some sadness/depression has started to kick in because of my inability to be more active and do for myself. I am very independant so asking for help is very difficult, no matter how necessary for me right now. I get the impression my husband is also a little tired of me not being able to do more and doesn't smeet to quite get that my feet are suppose to be up still, which leads me to do a little more for myself and to help out more than I probably should.
With the holidays coming up I am coming to realize that a good part or none of the shopping will actually be done by me. I think it would be a very bad idea to try and navigate the very busy stores with my two boots as I am afraid to death someone could step on my feet accidently, as you can't see my feet standing in a line (if I could even stand that long!). I'm also a little worried at this point about Thanksgiving dinner and the Christmas tree. Both of which happen primarily by me with a little help from others. I am sure it will all work out. Just having my own little pity party right now.
This morning to try and make me feel a little better I painted my toes! :) Maybe if they look more normal, I will feel better? Haven't had too much chance to test this theory as I have socks on and ice on them, but plan to take a "gander" at them later and spend a couple minutes enjoying my new beauties! LOL!
Enough for now. A friend is coming over to keep me company while I show her how to create an online photobook and later for dinner my oldest, his wife and grandson coming for the highly requested family favorite, calzones.
I know it's so easy to get discouraged while having to have someone help around the house. This is our domain an we like to be able to control that environment or at least be able to take care of it as we please. I promise soon you'll be looking back on it all with a smile. I am seven weeks 2 days post op now. I wore about an inch and a half heel sandal type shoe to church this morning (even though I still have swelling and to my understanding will still have that for a while). I am finding that some of my old shoes are stretched out enough to wear even though the swelling is still there. Also my toes finally faded from the black/blue at a little over 4 weeks. I was shocked also that they stayed this way for so long. But you are doing amazing. As you go through the recovery it seems so long getting there, but looking back it seems like it has been no time at all! God bless!
ReplyDeleteAlways good to hear from Katbird since she's been through this and knows exactly what you/we are feeling.
ReplyDeleteDeb, keep being honest with yourself and everything your feeling is normal. It's hard not to over do things when you feel so good. And know what doesn't get done this year for the holiday's don't get done. You will end up with the best presents in a few months - your new feet!! Your family understands. Tomorrow is a new day and you may feel totally awesome and the next day like total crap and that's okay. Just take one day at a time and be true to yourself. You really have done so much this last week with work, your recovery, your visits out of the house and in the house and at some point your body might be telling you to slow down again. How exciting for you to have your son return home though, hey!!! And just think by then you'll be able to run up and give him a hug and that's all that matters. Keep doing what your doing and allow yourself not to get everything done and NOT to feel bad about it. Thanks for sharing your feelings.